It is interesting to find out the way to control time. I guess everyone in here want to try out how, but no one knows. Sometimes I am just fear of the word time, coz' this seems to be my lifetime enemy. This is what I think of time and I hope for a flash back, maybe to the beginning of life.
It reminds me the Butterfly Effect, which scares me to look back. Some sort of encouraging me not to regret what I did, coz' they might be the best I could do. Everyone grows by every minute, so the learning to living is keep processing in every single second. It could be exciting to me, and every once in a while I feel sadness.
I hope I could go back to few checkpoints in my life, most of them are some starting point of somethings. I guess if I'm flashing back to primary, my violin will be much mature. How about secondary, it was when I turned quite differently. But those people I know might have disappeared in my mind, vanished. So places I would have never been to, never experienced. That could be horrible then...
What about a fast forward, that's what I wished to have when I was way younger. Maybe I want it now, still... A closer year would be my 18, that would become a slightly difference in physical but not for social. I guess I would grow a lot mentally, I just hope I would. The next checkpoint, 21, the whole step to the world that is full of joy (with lots of pain and depression, also dangerous enough to ruin anyone's life). Seems like able to control my life, I mean almost. I feel I can't control the whole part, somehow I feel that I can't be free, always...
Time is just time, it has no life.
I hope I can forget all of my regret, I want to forget past..
but I can't..
Hope... this word comes again
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