In august I met August, a boy with nothing similar to me I thought. We had spent an afternoon together, and I was being an easy man as always. We talked, shared and explored our mind.
Seems familiar
One reason why I put the numbers for the title is that I started to replay my life by checkpoints instead of events which are separated, because sooner or later you would find yourself in a cycle that never end. Something like three years a cycle, just like generation gap.
I looked back and see how people around me would comment on this Sunny. How much they know me and trust me. But this act is like a lab. researching living creatures in space, you would want to know, yet you don't want to face. Like the numbers of convenient store in my neighborhood, it's just too much.
As if I conclude now, I say, the more the person knows me, the more the person hates me, the less the person trust me. Maybe I am just the kind of people you would like to be friend with, you would like what I act, but not what I think. Partly because I am as normal as anyone you can meet, and partly because I was being how you would like me to be at the very beginning.
Now, I would stop saying that I won't let people down. I have to think if having people trusted is a good thing, because even me, I don't trust myself quite well.
Days by days I am running myself quite automatically, like some procedures, like Top Gear show everyday 10am and 12:30am, like traveling to work on this bus every Wednesday. When you in look this way, every laugh and tear became reactions, some results and answers. It's the same thing that when I was young, I saw the warnings in the computer and I thought it would get angry and punish me. It is the same thing I could feel now. Whether this kind of reaction is actually me, or it is just a habit of mine