Mature?

When I get older, whether I like it or not, I spend more time on traffic than ever. Before I know it, I actually spent awfully long time waiting in my life. Doesn't matter if I am waiting for a chance, a time, an event, for a person, or even a machine. For an impatient one to sit down and look for something happen, is actually like telling a little boy to stop fooling around, almost impossible.

A little boy doesn't realize what's inside him that keep pushing him, like having a very bad sleep after a whole day doing extreme sports, the muscles just won't stop. Let's put it on an adult version, fame. Not like money that we can hold it with our hands, fame has its invisible advantage and satisfaction that make us different from others. We can see people honestly admit that they are thirsty for money, but almost no one want to say they pursuit fame unless they are stars. Even so, this word is usually associated with someone big, and ambitious, and to me, it's quite a bad word to describe people.

But my point is we always don't see those we don't want to see, we just lie to ourselves when we've done something we hate. We just look up and go, but we are still doing it.

Like how I used “we” rather “me", I just don't want to see me.